Assalamualaikum......
Aerm.........pagi nie...aq agak rindukan dye.....
sbb biasenye.....stiap pagi aq akan gayut ngn dye....
dgar suare dye kejut aq.....
but now.....
kedit aq da xpired.....cdeyh btol.....
aerm.....da lah dye alek kg....
aq rindukan dye....
xsbar nk tggu mggu depan jumpe dye alek.....
tapi.....
ntah kenape....
aq xleyh wat assgment aq skrg nie....
sbb aq xtnteram......
xtahu knape.....
mybe aq tringat bnde smlm kot.....
da dua ary aq mmpi bnde yg same.....
aq mimpi psl aq mati......
tpi aq trpakse tipu dye ckp yang aq mati sbb kne mkn buaya.....
mmg aq xptut wt cmtu.....
aq xnk dye ase ssah aty.....
sbnarnye......mimpi tu lbeyh ngeri dari tu.....
aq xtaw nk cite mcmmne.....
tpi.......mmg mnakutkn......
n aq xnk igt lagi....
aq nk lupekan sume nie.....
aq nk focus study....
hmm.....mls lah cte psl mmpi mainan syaitan tu.....
tapi sbnanye......aq mseh ade mslah lain.....
dlm erti kate lain...
cemburu......
boleyh dikatekan gitu lah......
bila ingat balik......
aq ase mcm pelik.....
relay aq nie utk ape sbnanye.....
aq pcaye dye jujur ngn aq.....
tpi sjak kwn dye ckp jgn rpat sgt dye budak tu...t aq jelez.....
dye mcm xamek port ape budak tu ckp......
mmg aq thu......aq da nafikan sume tu.....
aq pk positive je...sbb aq thu....clasmate dye rmai llaki.....
tpi......klau smpai aq ade depan mate dye....
dye leyh mention nme bdk tu n trtggu2 dye......
siape aq kt dpan mate dye?.......
sblum dye alek arytu....
aq ade trase jgak lah......
aq xnk ckp byk.....
sbb aq xske luahkan....
sbb aq sygkn dye.....
aq xnk dye kecik aty walau skit pn.....
aq nk tgok dye always snyum dpan aq....
smpaikan.....aq trpakse pendam aq pgi bual ngn kwn aq yg kbtulan lalu at ctu....
mcm biase......aq mmg snyap mnyepi tnpe kate law ade smting yg xkne....
tapi......aq dpt lupekn sume tu......
but then.......semalam....
aq g kuar ke bndar.....
aq call lah dye nk gtw....
n jujur.....aq nk dgr suare dye sbb aq rndu dye......
but then......dye leyh cte psl bdak tu?....
dlm aty trgerak nk ckp....
"sy call awk bukan nk dgr cte bdak tu....tpi nk ckp ngn awk."
but....aq ase xplu kot aq kluarkn kate2 aq tuh....
pendam je......dye rsaukn bdak tu xalek uma.....shian dye shian dye.....tu je yg dye kate.....
aq off call gtu je....
sbb aq tkot smpai aq trkluarkn ayat tu....
aq xnk trsinggung......
n ps 5minit....
aq da ase lega ckit......aq call dye alek....bru lah aq ase aq ckp ngn
dye......law x......ade je mention nme bdk tu.....
today......ntah knape....aty aq trgerak pulak da nk bukak fb dye....
niat aq juz nk tgok ape yg dye chat ngn akk aq smlm.....
tpi.......
trnmpak nme bdk tu inb0x smlm.....
k lah....aq wt xtw....xnk check....tpi....
ble 2 3 kali aq tgok je last msj tu......aq ase aty aq mmbuak2 nk thu ape ade dlm tu.....
aq pn bukak.....
siap ckp nk tman bdk tu....
yg tu aq mseh leyh think positive....
but....smpaikan nk bwk krete ayah snyap2 sbb nk bwk dye jlan2......
nie aq xleyh.........xpewla...
aq cube phm....
kwn dye.......
hak dye.....
aq xleyh halang....
(syg....sy thu....aq igt sy mmg xkn pk sume tuh....tpi ingat lah syg......sy pn ade aty ngn prasaan......bukan ckp nk rapat xboleyh......tpi....sy hrp awak phm.....sy thu.....dye kwn rpat awk......mafkn sy sbb trcemburu lihat awak ngn dye.......mafkan sy.....sy thu sy xptut pk mcm tuh.........sy syg awk.....)
ya allah.....kuatkn aty aq...akal fikiran ku....
agar aq mmpu tempuh sume nie......
jauhkan lah aq dari sifat cemburu ini ya allah.....
agar aq mmpu kekal ngn dye smpai akhir hayat aq.....
amin....
ya robbal alamin............
aq smbung assgmnt dlu.......
bye......
( 12:17 ~ 21/10/2012)
